Today.........

26th April 2009

2:10 p.m.

Right now, feeling so bloody lonely n empty. No one to say “I Care”. Jus sitin starin at each without saying a word. And when either of us opens his/her mouth, the only exchange is to blame each other. So at this moment, silence IS bliss for me.

Feel like jus getting up, takin ma bag n walk out of the door. But unable to do that. That would prove I’m a loser, which I am not. So here in am, sitin, talkin to u, becoz ther’s no one else to share.

I dunno wat to do, how to react. Said Sorry, dint work. Days r running by. Dunno if this really is gonna work. But I am gonna give it my best shot, so that atleast I won’t regret n blame myself for not givin ma best.

Life seems upside down right now. Want to start getting busy soon so that my stupid empty mind stops becoming da freakin devil’s workshop, which it already is now. And I hate myself for it.

Why cant I ever be selfish, like others. I try so hard but I stil cant act selfish or throw attitude. Its just not me. Me is a very simple girl, who gets pleasure out of simple things in life like love, care and people she likes, around her. Then too people find it hard to accept her. They take her for granted n in the end she always ends up being lost.